Yesterday was my first run in 2017. It wasn’t a long run or anything impressive, but it still made me proud. I maybe ran two or three times last winter because I was too afraid to face the cold. I made up every excuse to not get out there. I was afraid of injuries, afraid of being slow, and afraid of facing the fact that I was out of shape. It’s easy to get lost in life sometimes. I forgot what made me happy, I let my health get behind me, I ignored my goals, and just waited to hit rock bottom. Oh, and I definitely hit rock bottom.
I was not a happy person last January. I felt like over the past two years I lost the positive and happy person that used to live deep down inside of me. I tried to put on a smile and be happy, but I felt like I was struggling to keep my head above water. I knew things had to change because the path I was going down did not feel good.
It’s been exactly one year since I hit rock bottom and the person I am today is 100% different that the person I was on January 5th of last year. It’s incredible how one year can change everything, but you have to be willing to change and willing to dedicate yourself to a new lifestyle. This isn’t something I’ve talked about on the blog and I struggled behind the scenes. It’s really hard to put yourself out there and share your struggles to millions. I have so many amazing readers, but there is also a lot of negativity that comes along with being a blogger. I wasn’t in a great place and I didn’t feel comfortable putting myself out there. Sometimes this subject is embarrassing, but is shouldn’t be. While I was out on my run yesterday, I decided that I was ready to share my struggles and hopefully there is someone out there that can relate. I am in such a great place in my life right now, and if you’re feeling down or in a rut, trust me, you can turn it all around!
Getting in shape can be stressful and a freaking pain in the butt, but it doesn’t have to be. I’ve lost 17 pounds since last January just by making some changes in my life. I don’t spend everyday counting calories, I don’t cut sugar, I don’t cut fat, I don’t workout everyday, and I don’t jump on the scale obsessively. I wasn’t born with a “she can eat anything and as much as she wants” kind of metabolism, so weight has always been a struggle. As an E.D. recoverer, I have to be extra cautious to not fall into unhealthy habits. It’s never been easy for me, but this past year changed my entire mindset.
I had to STOP making excuses. I blamed my lack of exercise on the weather. I blamed my eating habits on football season, or the holidays. I made up excuses for why I was unhappy, but didn’t do anything to change it. When you come up with a game plan, write goals, and stop making excuses, you’ll be surprised at how much you can accomplish. It’s easy to make excuses, but it’s more rewarding to get up and do something about it. I mentally prepared myself for the winter weather, the hot summer days, and came up with a game plan on how to GET THINGS DONE. When you’re in a slump, it’s super hard to pull yourself out of it, but you have to be patient with yourself and ease back into the swing of things. You don’t want to go from slump to full out beast-mode, because that is not realistic. You have to take baby steps and gradually ease back into it.
It was time to surround myself with people who are positive, inspire, and motivate me to be the best version of myself. This was one of the key steps in changing my lifestyle. I was surrounded by pretty toxic people for a while. There was nothing but negativity and degrading words. It’s easy to get sucked into that, and I’m sure a lot of you have been there before. I couldn’t take it anymore, because it was causing me to lose who I was. This past year, I was blessed with new friends and people who have a positive influence on my life. This is what I had been praying for. I now have friends who love to go running with me, cook healthy meals, go to the gym, and walk miles on miles just becuase! Our friendships aren’t always about health and fitness, we have so much fun being goofy and that happiness plays a huge part in my healthy lifestyle. When you’re happy, you feel good. It sucks to cut people out of your life, but if people are a negative influence or dragging you down, you have to do what is best for you. It’s not a selfish move, it’s a necessary one. I wouldn’t be where I’m at RIGHT NOW if it weren’t for the people I surround myself with.
I found my love for fitness again. When you fall off the bandwagon, you kind of lose a love for eating healthy and exercising. I was scared to get back out there because I was so out of shape. I didn’t want to face the fact that I was going to be slow, going to be out of breath, and going to all around suck. I had to get out of that dumb mindset and take baby steps to finding a fitness plan again. I made a calendar with a fun fitness schedule. One of my FAVORITE workouts isn’t actually running, it’s walking! I had a schedule that looked like this Mon: Run 1 Mile/Walk 3 Miles, Tues: Gym Circuit, Wed: Spin Class, Thurs: Walk 3 Miles, Fri: Run 2 Miles/Gym Circuit, Sat: Hike, Sun: 4 Mile Walk. I would add more to my miles each week and change up all of my classes and circuits. After three months of scheduling, I started to get back into shape and become more confident with myself. I was confident that I COULD change and I COULD be my happiest again. I used to be a cardio junky and thats great, but mixing in strength training is so important. It helps build muscle, prevents injuries and helps shape you! I’m a huge advocate for writing down and making plans. I now LOVE running and I love going to the gym and coming up with circuits. I used to dread the gym and hate facing people in a workout class, but now I live for it and can’t wait for my next sweat session. My biggest competition is myself and I love crushing goals. Signing up for races really helped too. It holds you accountable! Tell everyone you’re going to do it, so the pressure is on!
I stopped “DIETING” and now practice intuitive eating. I will never change this mindset and it’s the healthiest way to eat in my opinion. If you ever find yourself in an unhealthy relationship with food, you should really look into intuitive eating. Intuitive eating helps you form peace with your mind and body. There is no such thing as “fattening” or “bad” foods when you intuitively eat. You allow yourself to listen to your body, eat when you want to eat, eat what you want to eat, never deprive yourself…and so on. You naturally know when enough is enough and just knowing you can have anything you want, takes away the deprived feeling. If I tell myself peanut butter is off limits, I want to eat the whole damn jar. If I tell myself I can have it, it’s whatever. You should never tell yourself you can’t have something, just eat it. Intuitive eating has helped me practice natural moderation and allows me to listen to my body. I used to be so obsessed with counting calories, limiting fat, limiting carbs, and now I just eat what my body is telling me to eat. I’ve never felt more at peace with food. Some people will fail over and over, but never come to the terms that “DIETS DO NOT WORK.” You can’t diet forever and when you’re at your goal weight, then what? I’ve been there and done that. If I would have just started practice exercise and intuitive eating from the start…
Principals of Intuitive Eating: Reject the Diet Mentality, Honor Your Hunger, Make Peace With Food, Challenge the Food Police, Respect Your Fullness, Discover the Satisfaction Factor, Respect Your Body, Honor Your Feelings Without Using Food,Exercise–Feel the Difference, Honor Your Healthy–Gentle Nutrition. (Intuitive Eating (BOOK I RECOMMEND)
I drink more water. I’m not a water person and I feel like I could live without it for weeks. I decided to carry around my water bottle everywhere I go, and drink water while I’m working or doing whatever throughout the day. It’s something I do have to force myself to do, but it’s made a difference in my skin, energy levels, and the way I workout. I also focus better when I’m hydrated. If I’m ever feeling blah, I make sure to chug water. Lemons in my water help!
I stopped weighing myself every damn day. I was so guilty of weighing myself everyday and letting it control my self-worth. If I was up in weight, I would diet and workout until I was losing pounds. If I was losing, I’d allow myself to eat more and it was just a really unhealthy relationship. I decided to weigh myself ONCE a month and I really focused on checking inches and body fat percentage. The scale can be your worst enemy. I remember weighing myself early February and it said I had gained 3 pounds. I was PISSED! (only pissed because I had been working out and taking all the right steps) I went to the gym to check my inches, and I had lost 1 1/2 inches…so yeah, screw, you, scale!
I focus on fueling my body properly. I never used to eat the right foods when it came to working out. I was only focussed on low calorie and low carb, but my body responded with a big “OH, HELL NAW!” When I started incorporating more carbs, calories, and protein into my diet, I started seeing more progress. I now make sure to have carbs before a workout and protein after a workout. I feel so much better, recover way faster, and my body is much happier! I don’t count carbs or protein, but I know what foods to eat before and after.
I finally feel like I have control over my healthy lifestyle. I’m getting ready to lace up and go out for my run after this post (I have a half marathon to train for!), but I hope this helped at least one person out there! Just remember to consult with your doctor before making any changes to your lifestyle 😉 These are things that worked for me, but everyone is different!
I will have a new fitness challenge coming next week!
Questions For You! ( I promise to get to every single one of your comments during my down-time tonight)
- Have you ever hit a bad slump in your life?
- What is your biggest 2016 accomplishment?
- Questions for me?