Can I just vent? Thank you.
I am beyond annoyed and feel like crying. I know people have it so much worse and I have absolutely nothing to complain about compared to others. But I am human and it is natural. I feel like that doll baby you see a little girl drag around by the arm, or an unfolded shirt on top of the neatly folded pile at J Crew. I am about to pop. As I mentioned before, I am a control freak.Yes I admit it. I have OCD when it comes to organization and clutter. I am getting better and moving around a lot is helping me face it. But when the plans change over and over again, it doesn’t help.
Some people may find this humorous, but not me. I’m still looking for that side of the situation.
I wrote a couple post about my move to Michigan and how I was preparing myself. Then I wrote about how it got pushed back. I also mentioned that Jeremy’s job likes to change the plans last minute. Well, it just happened again. For the third time! In no way is this his fault. I try to stay positive around him or I’m sure it would be stressful. This time I am just plain frustrated.
Why am I frustrated? (Yes I like to pretend a therapist is questioning me)
I just spent two days packing everything into cardboard boxes and sealing them up with masking tape. I didn’t take my time either. I looked like a chicken with it’s head chopped off. I blasted Selena Gomez at six AM while scrubbing the kitchen and now my neighbors probably hate me. I have to face them for a couple more weeks. Now that everything is boxed up, I am left alone with my laptop, dog, and bed. I like to make the best of situations, but how do I do it this time? I am ten seconds from packing my bags and going to Florida for a “Selfcation” (of course with my dog) I just need my consistency. There are so many things I’d like to do this summer like: join a slow pitch team, join a new Crossfit box, or plant a garden. I know I’ll be fine in a couple hours, but I just needed to vent. I’m just a little stressed out right now and hate not knowing what is next. There are a lot of great benefits with traveling, but I am still learning how to manage it the right way.
Thanks for listening.
*breath
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